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ANGUISHLY DELIGHTFUL (STANLEY II)

Dec 27, 2006

Every time my bright eyes set on you I reminisce deep memories from before

 

Once we are finally together mixed feelings always arise throughout my whole body

 

So eagerly I am yet I hesitate when we start our undertaking…

 

Because I hate it at the same time love it every time you penetrate into me

 

That virgin part of my skin cannot resist your temptation when you are inside

 

You making me tremble with every stroke while your body gently glides on top of my flesh  

 

I have to grip your body firmly with my eyes tightly shut as I bite my lip trying not to moan

 

In my mind I know you could do me for hours and hours at a time if you wanted

 

But it is just too much for my delicate body to endure as my beads of sweat slowly drips down my body

 

I let out a forceful cry of pain that produces tears of joy and I want you to stop but I want you some more!

 

(Sigh) Do not stop now please bring me to a place that only you can take me there

 

Mixing anguish and delight you do drifts me away to unreality all the time…

 

Yet some times yes we do not even finish I could not care less as you leave my body in tenderness

 

I am constantly satisfied every time and I always go back to you alone with the same eagerness

 

Although the times when we are both done our bodies are completely exhausted

 

And however we part you forever leave me more beautiful inside and out...

 

Thank you (tattoo machine) for my gorgeous tattoos!

SO CLOSE

Feb 5, 2007

Lying beside you my life flashes in my mind.

FLASH, FLASH, FLASH

I want to stare at your beautiful soul

But someone else seems to be watching me.

I am paralyzed to do anything I wish,

If only I could have my way this time,

I am so close to you…

The sight of your half naked body,

Relives deadly memories.

BEAT, BEAT, BEAT

Hearing your heart beating next to me,

Makes my heart stop.

LICK, LICK, LICK

I could almost taste your juicy lips,

But it is poison on my tongue.

SNIFF, SNIFF, SNIFF

Smelling the scent of your skin,

Sticks like glue against mine.

STROKE, STROKE, STROKE

I could almost stroke your intimate areas,

However more evils would flood my mind.

When you are so close to me…

It is so hard to stay away,

CHOKE, CHOKE, CHOKE

I am trapped within your grasp,

I submit fully only to you,

I cannot let go.

MY TOY STORY

Saturday, November 25, 2006

Ur eyes light up from the mere sight of me, U want me so bad, u can't refuse, That u have to have me. In a tightly sealed box I am. Nevertheless u rip me open, In addition to grabbing me aggressively. Then u assume u read me well. But my light within blinds u. So u shake me to dim me down And proceed to my cover that tell u… I'm free! Fun! Full of life! Illuminating! But delicate! On the back it reads… Play many games with me, Enjoy me for hours, U will never get bored with me, Pass me around, Share me with ur friends, I'm your property now. Misuse me if u please, Treat me like garbage, Break me down, Take me apart, See what I'm made out of Ask urself, what makes me tick? U don't really care about me anyway. I'm just an object, An object that u think doesn't have feelings. But I do!... So read in between the lines Where u will find the fine yet bold print. I clearly read… Give me a proper name, Play with me safe, Handle me gently, Show me some affection. Most importantly… Treat me with respect, And every time u take me out, Return me to my proper place, On top of a pedestal where I belong.

LUST AT FIRST SIGHT?

Saturday, December 02, 2006

Your tattooed body draws me closer
It is not my possession to grip
But raping you arises even more,
Intensely penetrating my mind.

Excite me you succeeded,
Tease me u did,
Although resist me you did not.
My way is mine sooner or later.

I snatch you and welcome you in.
Ceasing was an option
Nevertheless not taken.
Surrender we did to each other.

Our bodies crash
Finding pleasure in its pain
Bite, scratch, and suck,
Push, pull, and blow.

And at the midst of it all,
Your flame burns brighter,
My angel soars higher,
Except deception is what binds us.

I DON'T WANA HAVE SEX WITH HIM!

Monday, December 11, 2006

I was awoken by his text Finally we were going to met today. But the only thing strange enough Running through my mind is… "I don't wana have sex with him." "I don't wana have sex with him?" Why is this voice talking to me? Is it trying to convince me otherwise? I didn't know why I was thinking that As I got out of my bed and straight to the shower. I shampooed my long hair first, brushed my teeth and washed my face And all I could say to myself is… "I don't wana have sex with him." "I don't wana have sex with him?" Why is this voice talking to me? Is it trying to convince me otherwise? I was puzzled, looking up to the ceiling. As I lather, slowly scrubbing my body I proceed down south touching myself. Making sure I'm clean, very clean. Wondering, why I'm I doing this I seem to be on auto drive and I ponder again… "I don't wana have sex with him." "I don't wana have sex with him?" Why is this voice talking to me? Is it trying to convince me otherwise? I appeared confused As I get out of the shower, dripping wet I ran into my room naked. While my skin is damp I rub lotion on it Victoria's Secret Garden, Pear Glace: skin-silkening Why do I want to smell like a fruit, I thought… "I don't wana have sex with him." "I don't wana have sex with him?" Why is this voice talking to me? Is it trying to convince me otherwise? I seemed more confused now As I put on my favorite lacey thong Along with my matching bra. I continue to pick my clothes And I'm having a hard time. Why do I think about sex, when… "I don't wana have sex with him!" We're now sitting next to each other finally He's driving me to his house We talked, drank, and we...

LOOK THROUGH MY WINDOW

Monday, January 29, 2007

Look through my window Don't play coy with me I know that you have seen me before And I know that you want to look again. You have entered into me and seen my small world You have… Set your eyes on how I am when I'm nude, Caught a sight of how I am when I'm even naked, Investigated how I am when I'm choosing my underwear, Noticed how I am when I'm dressed, Witnessed how I am when I'm judging myself in the mirror, Understood how I am when I'm crying into my pillow, Perceived how I am when I'm lost wondering around, Distinguished how I am when I'm busy being occupied, Pictured how I am when I'm pleasuring myself, Observed how I am when I'm sleeping trying to dream of happiness. You could see all of me any time you want I'm not hiding anything from you. Why are you hiding from me? Why can't I see all of you? Don't you think it's unfair? Unfair that your window is always shut for me… Or is it unfair to myself? That I leave my window wide open for you.

I HATE BEING A GIRL!

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

I have all these clothes i don't need, Bags I don't use, Accessories I don't wear, Shoes I don't sport, And make-up I put on to feel beautiful, For guys that don't even try to impress me.   I'm not complaining, I'm just jealous. I like guys who are what I wanna be, Free to do whatever they want and just be themselves.   Being a girl, I'm always judged by other people and girls, (Some who are even my friends) by how I look. You rarely hear a guy say to another guy, "Dude, what are you wearing?" I swear in my past life I was either a guy or a dog, Which are pretty similar. It makes me think, "me as a guy."   Me as a guy because: ~I wanna pee anywhere ~I wanna do whatever i want without people judging me ~I wanna not be conscious with my appearance ~I wanna drink alcohol like a horse, not have people count my drinks,  and ask me constantly if I'm drunk yet ~I wanna be called "a man" and take control and be aggressive  instead of a "slut or easy" ~I wanna have intercourse with a girl and do a guy in the ass ~I wanna screw anyone I want and not have a connection with them the  next day ~I wanna like sex and not be ashamed to say it without being called  a "whore" ~I wanna be able to leave the mother of my child, not take any more responsibility for them, completely forget about her, and start a new life with a different women   ~I wanna stop writing this because it's making me crazy   The truth is... I HATE GUYS CUZ I'M A GIRL!

PREDATOR/PREY

Thursday, October 19, 2006

I tied your hands behind your head so you wont get away or get distracted. You will pay attention and remember every single thing that I am about to do to you.. I start by running my fingers in your thick dark brown hair that is hiding your delightful face. I want to look into those piercing brown eyes that look into me, While I kiss your juicy lips nice and slow, sucking your tongue, and biting your lip until it bleeds. My tongue and hands have a mind of their own and wants to explore your body. From your lips I continue to my favorite place to put my tongue, In your ear is where you will hear and feel every desire that I have for you, From my heavy breathing and the racing sound of my heart, To my blood that surges to every place in my body making it throb, warm, and wet. I purposely make several marks on your body, Marks that will remind you of this moment that you will never forget, From the little bite marks on the lobe of both your ear, to your swollen tongue and lips, To the red spot on your neck and lastly the trail from my nails that dug into your flesh. You do not even know it in the beginning and it may be unexpected, But you are my prey and I am your predator. I have been trying to hunt you down, watching your every move, but you always get away, However this time you are captured and I am ready to devour you!

STANLEY

Friday, October 06, 2006

I  want to feel slippery in between my thighs.     fantasize wild & dirty orgies when u r in me.   My  body quivers with every touch from u.   U  never disappoint me & u always make me come.   When  I turn u on u make me feel so good.   I  sweat, pant heavily, & my heart races while I close my eyes tight  & scream. U  can take me away from all my problems & the chaos of my life for  a moment.   U  also sooth me to sleep, make me dream blissfully, & I always wake  up with a smile. If  only my body & mind could take it, I wish u could do me over &  over again 24/7.   But  for now I will put u away safe in my underwear drawer, until the day  I get naked with u again.

THAT ONE KISS

Saturday, October 21, 2006

I  do not know why I am so crazy for you.   You  do not even notice me,   But  all I want is just that one kiss,   One  kiss that will unleash all these feelings deep inside of me,   Feelings  that every time you are in my presents takes over my body.   This  could be love or maybe just lust,   I  would not know unless I get that one kiss,   One  kiss that is better than sex.   There  is a connection with that one kiss,   One  kiss that goes deeper than any male genitals can.   The  feeling of that one kiss can lifts me off my feet,   While  sex could only pounds me down to the ground/wall.   I  just wish in that one kiss,   I  am not the only one that feels like they are in heaven,   Because  I want to take you there too.